I’ve counted the days, but none of them felt as memorable as before. It was exhausting to progress with little steps day by day. And it was slowly killing me and my courage to move forward and think of my reasons. It was just a dream that started with a simple idea.

What happened? A lot has happened. And I never imagined the worst to shatter my will. There are so many reasons why I should chase my dreams, but reality always sets me back. I was like being outnumbered.

I got lost and struggled to get back the real me. The days seemed longer than they were for as long as I can remember. I almost prayed to endure another long day and get over with it. I was never me.

I know myself more than anyone else, and you must trust me with that. But I always fail to remember who I am and who I should be. These circumstances have turned me into a different person.

Before, I am confident that I can manage all the way here and maintain my composure. I envisioned a different situation than what I am with now. But look at me, I have never been what I thought I could be. Was I too ambitious?

Sometimes I ponder on everything that has occurred in my life. And there are times that I just let it all go because I get emotional. I’ve long known that I will only waste my time crying on something that has never happened. Although sometimes, you can’t keep the tears from falling.

When it gets hard, you realize a lot of things. And I think it is upon us whether to believe everything. We make our reality. That’s what I wanted you to know. And I hope to see you live one day.


“You are not going to master the rest of your life in one day. Just relax. Master the day. Then keep doing that every day.” – Anon